JOURNAL

By christinaillenapeake, Apr 24 2018 06:03AM

Project poster
Project poster
Squares created by the ladies in the process of being sewn together.
Squares created by the ladies in the process of being sewn together.
Journal - The dream of the EU blue book passport
Journal - The dream of the EU blue book passport
Journal - Hard. Looking through the concrete.
Journal - Hard. Looking through the concrete.
Journal - Lithium. The manic depressive leveller if you can ride it.
Journal - Lithium. The manic depressive leveller if you can ride it.
Journal - Salad cream on jacket potatoe.
Journal - Salad cream on jacket potatoe.
Journal - Manic hero on aid run.
Journal - Manic hero on aid run.
Gold weights - Designs for residency work series sculptures.
Gold weights - Designs for residency work series sculptures.

Over the last couple of months the ladies, volunteers and sisters have been marking their squares and now I am in the process of sewing them together to create the blanket. I have incorporated an embroidery piece that a sister had created some years previously I believe. I think the blanket is going to make a great wall hanging and will incorporate through very simple embroidery more of the suffragette colours of white, purple and green into the work.


The ladies have suggested exhibiting the work and I think this is a great idea to incorporate the work that we have done and in general the experience over the last year so I am thinking what is the right space as I am not sure what would be accessible for everyone.


Although I cant post my field notes I think the visual journal gives insight in to the experience that this residency has been to date. It has been very difficult in recent months juggling childcare commitments and attending sessions but these are challenges of being a mother and an artist and working with a womens' charity there is alot of understanding from the staff on this.


The 'Predation' book is coming along and the next sketchbook will follow up on that development and also some the amazing work I have seen over the last month.


I have also been watching or listening to a great series of lectures on the biblical stories by Jordan Peterson and I think this summer when I have finished I may write up my lessons from the series. Considering each lecture appears to be about two and a half hours each time I will make this as succint as possible.


I am addicted to podcasts at the moment especially as I can just chill working while taking in subject and learning about some crazy projects and aspirations that people have like Boyan Slat who proposes to clear the plastic from the oceans by 2040 or something nuts and turn the refuse in commercial products. The man is a genius and the focus that he approaches his work with is laser like. During the podcast Joe Rogan asked him if he has other ideas and he said that he will concentrate only on this one until completion. I always have a couple of projects going and then thinking of where I am going for the next as I get bored quickly but then this is a world altering idea with so many aspects to it that it assimilates a lifetime of projects for the average person. Some humans arre working on another level and always havee done and its amazing to see them do it.


Happy hunting guys.

By christinaillenapeake, Feb 14 2018 08:51PM

Christmas carnival decorations - Festive palm trees.
Christmas carnival decorations - Festive palm trees.
Memory maps of the sessions in the drop in centre.
Memory maps of the sessions in the drop in centre.
Memory map of drop in session.
Memory map of drop in session.
Bustle skirt for Christmas carnival
Bustle skirt for Christmas carnival
These bustle skirt costumes could be easily tied over clothes.
These bustle skirt costumes could be easily tied over clothes.
Hats made for carnival
Hats made for carnival
With cord, ribbon or strips that fell down the back to waist.
With cord, ribbon or strips that fell down the back to waist.
Lace, fluffy material and gold brocade.
Lace, fluffy material and gold brocade.
Sketches for residency work based on African Gold Weights - 'Crossed Fists'
Sketches for residency work based on African Gold Weights - 'Crossed Fists'
'Crossed Ankles'.
'Crossed Ankles'.

This residency has been one of the most challenging in regards to creating projects that appeal to the clients at the charity and the creation of work itself. After each session I write up my thoughts and reflections of the day.


On hearing these stories you try to recontextualise your experience to understand and empathise with those that are telling it but with many in these instances the truth is that I cannot understand in anyway, not truly and I am honest and open about that failing. Then on the train home I thank those that stand above us that I dont understand, that my experience has no relative instance and then on the other I find it stomach churning that someone can identity as it is their story. Saying that my experiences have made people wince and on leaving our conversation thanking the stars my story wasn't their tale.


I can't change that experience but I do hope that the space created when running projects provides a warm place and possibly respite in the act of creation. For me art not only serves that purpose but pushes further to purge through the act of story telling whether that is my own or trying to understand others. For example, 'White Stag seen in Borno', that miniature that was associated with loved ones and sweethearts was a commemoration of those that basically disappeared, taken and still not found although several of the original girls were found. That in itself still today baffles me, that this can happen and what could that experience possibly be like? There were stories of them being married off to soldiers in the Boko Haram unit that took them. That they are wives of those that stole them, that twisted line of fate? What their families think and how they may mourn their loss and hope for their return? How to make sense of such accounts, that they are real.


For that image I tried to realise her as a warrior, one that would have to realise her own rescue or freedom is possible as after a while the motivation for authorities to do so fades away. They were that 'white stag' of medieval fame that creature that could never be caught or found and became a mythological token of the hunt. There is probably so much that surrounds that story making it darker than I could ever imagine. The truly scary thing is how dark can dark be?

By christinaillenapeake, Jan 20 2018 12:50PM

Raging Gods. Image for first chapter of initial impressions before Amazon.
Raging Gods. Image for first chapter of initial impressions before Amazon.
Adam & Eden. Colour bleached from images before green of Amazon.
Adam & Eden. Colour bleached from images before green of Amazon.
Centre of the Earth - Amazon cosmologies.
Centre of the Earth - Amazon cosmologies.
Spot the hunter...
Spot the hunter...
Departure - Travel into the unknown. Work in progress.
Departure - Travel into the unknown. Work in progress.
See it. Kill it. The first Kukama when an anaconda/woman falls in love.
See it. Kill it. The first Kukama when an anaconda/woman falls in love.
See it. Kill it. Fearful truths learned in Iquitos - Work in progress.
See it. Kill it. Fearful truths learned in Iquitos - Work in progress.
Fear of the mosquito - Work in progress.
Fear of the mosquito - Work in progress.
Baby Mama - Work in progress
Baby Mama - Work in progress

The work startswith mapping the image through collage using photographs, historical images and then building and stripping parts of layers out to create the images, that is distilled to the final image. This will then be printed and possibly worked into through adding further colour or cutting into the image itself.


I love to use historical imagery from the antique books I have collected. Many of them are from the Victorian era and based in children's stories, fables, anthropology and/or the natural sciences. The illustrations and etchings from this period are stunning and it is interesting to animate these into contemporary narratives or compositions.


I have also started playing around with vlogging to find the most natural way to record practice and general life and the questions that I now confront are how explicit do I want to be. Its amazing the transparency and honesty that podcasters communicate. When I listen to Joe Rogan, Risk or Atlanta Monster that has just started the explicit nature of the subject matter is one I instinctively want to hide rather than share and that is a real obstacle as someone that prefers to share a giggle face to face. I feel very exposed when it comes to social media which is why you will rarely see an image of me unless its of my work or something that really spoke to me. Plus I think why would someone want to see this which is what I think about alot of the fodder that ends up coming up on my feeds. Thats why I faded out of twitter. It wasn't for me. Instagram, I can do pictures. Finally if I am honest unless going out or a work meeting I really wear make up as I cant be bothered although I love it. Scarlet lipstick and clean eyes that make you pop. Work and family are the thing, a little for shits and giggles and everything after that is an A+ if I remember to do it!


The next sketchbook will focus on the gold weights that I have been designing as part of my current residency at a womens charity. There is a fascinating history behind the research on this one or at least I y

think so when you consider old African kingdoms that you now usually hear about because they're related to a fine weed strain but the Kush kingdom was a fascinating one with gold dust settled in the dirt of the streets. Must of sparkled something beautiful!

By christinaillenapeake, Dec 4 2017 08:39PM

The starting point. Designing landscape for the story...
The starting point. Designing landscape for the story...
Landscape forms illustartion that is basis next 3 works.
Landscape forms illustartion that is basis next 3 works.
Vintage comic and peshmeeerga cutouts,  plasticine and wings.
Vintage comic and peshmeeerga cutouts, plasticine and wings.
Layers of resin set the foundation.
Layers of resin set the foundation.
Wings and black pearls set within the layers.
Wings and black pearls set within the layers.
White lace outline.
White lace outline.
Colour blocked in...
Colour blocked in...
Mixed media -Acrylic ink and paint.
Mixed media -Acrylic ink and paint.
The final - Black outline added.
The final - Black outline added.
Acrylic ink provides beautiful detail.
Acrylic ink provides beautiful detail.
Bless, Memento Mori and Contrary Mary finally finished.
Bless, Memento Mori and Contrary Mary finally finished.

The last three months projects have gone into overdrive and things have become very busy but I want to start posting in my journal what has been happening over the course of the year and hopefully where we will be looking for the future.


I am plannign to start a vlog that reflects the journal but demonstarting more of the process and actual practice.


This is the sketchbook for Peshmerga a three piece work that was completed this year after about 18 months development in which I taught myself new digital media skills to create collage paintings that will inform the new book in entitled 'PREDATION' which will be featured in the previous sketchbook.


This work is also now featured as prints on fashion items, home furnishings and leather accessories. See for yourself at http://www.shopvida.com/collections/info-christinapeake

By christinaillenapeake, Sep 17 2017 12:24PM

Leary said ‘I die so hard everytime’. I watched the biography today on Leary and Abbas, linking back to every reference I have ever heard Joe Rogan echo about psychedelics. It was fascinating and quite unsettling when the conversation settled upon death but that was the point I guess to unpack that irrationality.


Leary died of pancreatic cancer and they filmed a lot towards the end of his life and their ‘reunion’ as it were. I was probably wrong but in some way there was an effervescence to him in the final minutes of the documentary holding onto anything and everything before the end but at the same time an acceptance born of a lifetime of curiosity. Abbas in turn radiated a sense of peace and wonder. His beaming smile and genuine innate wonder that would at the point of death and in that moment being fully present, the idea of which would make most people shit themselves but he described as the moment of becoming a God.


Death seems to walk ever closely as I grow older and it is a quick step to link it to those around me and our experiences and the intimate mythologies we create surrounding it. They published ‘The Psychedelic Experience: Manuel based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead’ (1964) but it relates to living and dying. I am think this Tibetan guide has to be the next book to read…


And so I started to read and the premise alone from the many forwards and introductions from Jung to the Lamas’ is quite extraordinary. That this manual follows the journey from death to rebirth feels illogical as a narrative but is perfectly rational in its instruction for a process we do not witness. As noted in the book it appears that it would be impossible to comment on a process that not a living soul has witnessed but the counterargument to that Western perspective is that everyone has died multiple times via the cyclical completion of numerous lives. I don't know the answers to any of that but in I am fixated on how this correlates to the ideas predation and consciousness that are forming my research.


How many times within our lives in this context do we ‘die’? The critical events or experiences in our lives that precipitate the shedding of one’s self for the next that grew within it? I find the ideas on consciousness that I am just starting to touch on link with the cosmologies and belief systems of those I am reading about in the Amazonas although they are thousands of miles apart and in many ways the systems themselves are as diverse as this ancient experimentation of consciousness and freedom to move within different realities and collective spaces of consciousness that are forming the foundation for my enquiries. What consciousness is of our creation and that of the collective? If there is a defined break at all as they are one and the same? Especially when you consider the examples of the collective consciousness that includes that of the natural environment from flora to fauna?


When Jung talks of the dominant archetypes and in this instance I am thinking of specifically predators, where is the demarcation of these creatures as spirits and/or gods of our creation and that of the flesh and bone animal that we fear may view us a prey?


Recently I have been watching videos of shark encounters, one in particular referred to the search for the Maori mega shark or Mango Taniwha, viewed as a shark spirit if I understand correctly. When the two men descend into the cage they film this female Great White or Tommy shark and she looks to be heavily pregnant and possibly 12 or 13 feet. There is a second video that claims 7m which would equal 23ft. The way she (in both instances) moves merging into the blue is absolutely terrifying and seductive simultaneously. This is probably my greatest fear that of the shark attack which for anyone that has seen the film Jaws will probably understand especially when seen at a stupidly young age where the fear gave body to the archetype that needed experience to feed life into it. She was stunning in every way and probably would have promoted a heart attack in me if I was in that shark cage that was completely open on one side!!


I have been watching animal predator attacks and encounters and I have noticed that the language used to describe maneaters or animal/human attacks engages the language use when you watch a serial killer documentary. The animal is completely anthropomorphised into a ‘killer’ as we understand that concept to the point where the animal to given a conscious morality and is witnessed through its attack of making or choosing the wrong action and in the worst cases vilified to the point of evil.


I wonder if animals have the breath of mental health illnesses that humans do? Do they have tendencies where such a categorisation would be correct? I haven’t read enough to know better but I assume so to some extent which is why we try to retrain animals to then rehome them. Animals have personalities so I assume logically that illnesses relating to that must exist.


It's amazing how we project the best and the worst of ourselves onto the natural environment to make it a personal vendetta or an ode to beauty and transcendence to point of god creation. The book Monster of God (Quammen, 2004) I think echoed a lot of that thought and concern and the subsequent implication on the natural environment from these interactions and the price paid from a Romanian dictatorship to Aboriginal communities.


So where does this leave my research, read more, read more, read more, watch more Youtube videos looking for the god or the monster and throughout try to focus that snowstorm in my head to create something on a page that will make your gut shake.